M A R I A   S T A R K
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established 2013
rebooted 9/2014, 8/30/15 & 4/1/16



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ELIZABETH MARCH
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4 yrs as maria, 6 yrs on tumblr.
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caducxus:

     Which one is better? A kind lie, or harsh truth?

        Trick question.

      Crackling voltage sears neurons, burning and wiping away who he once was (but n e v e r the victims or memories of their blood on his hand), agonized screams long since ignored by handlers, and trigger words have reverted man into weapon. He can remember the conflicting emotions (confusion. apprehension. fear. and in his last acknowledged seconds, selflessness) on his former friend’s face; he can hear incandescent fist colliding, bones cracking and crunching, mumbled pleas halted, and finally, a muffled thump as his hand jerks lifeless body back to the driver’s side. Howard’s head slumps, bloody imprints left behind on steering wheel. He still remembers the glassy look of dead eyes staring up at him. And though he feels that he’s going to become physically sick at any moment, the words stumble out of his mouth, anyway.

       “I… A pause and hesitant shake of his head (defiance never was responded to positively when he was with HYDRA), is accompanied with a quivering exhale.

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      “No. I didn’t. I’m not expectin’ you to feel sorry for me ‘cause of what HYDRA did to me…but for what it’s worth: I’m sorry.

          eyes close and a few stray tears fall as soon as the answer is given. though maria knew better, a part of her had hoped that bucky had intentionally let go, that a part of him had intended to keep her alive. but alas, the truth has finally been told to the italian, and as eyes slowly open, she’ll nod and quickly rush to wipe the tears away.   ❛ thank you. ❜   for being honest, and for apologizing, though he hardly has to do the latter. he’d had no control over himself, and despite how badly maria wishes to blame someone for what’s been done to her family, she knows it’s not bucky that deserves the blame. he’s a victim as much as she is.   ❛ i told myself that i would not cry if i ever met you. ❜   she’ll allow a soft chuckle to follow, though the moment is hardly light between the two.

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